The pain was so great that I was crying on the radiation table this morning. It burns when I have bowel movements (and lucky me I have them every morning just before I need to drive). This is a normal result of a shrinking tumor, as it breaks up it leaves a raw flesh that burns when anything rubs against it. I met with my naturopath today and he gave me some natural solutions to help with the burning. His natural remedies for nausea worked so I’m hopeful. I’ve been well-behaved diet-wise and I think it’s put me in a pretty good place for tolerating side-effects.
I thought I was getting the hang of the routine and managing my pain pretty well, but this week the radiation side-effects are too much. My time is spent sleeping now. My pills were upgraded today from Vicodin to Oxycodone. I haven’t taken any yet because all the pills are eating at my gut, making the nausea harder to manage. Instead I wait until the pain is unbearable before I take more drugs. If I have to pick, I prefer pain over nausea.
Complaining is the pits. I don’t like complaining. I want the pain to go away. I want to feel good.