where is my mind?
I’ve had a week of the worst headaches I’ve ever had, nausea, dizziness and about 13 to 14 hours of sleep a day. Without the extra sleep I’m useless. My least favorite part of the side-effects is not being able to focus my mind like I usually can. I’m learning more about how people see me based on all the things they come to me for that I just can’t do right now. I’m usually sharp, and a good resource for decision-making whether at work or home. Last night I had to make ONE decision and I broke down crying under the stress. That’s not me, I’m the queen of telling people what to do. It’s so strange, sad, and stressful losing my personality to cancer. I think time will pass and my mind will find it’s way back to me. But not right now. These days I’m not myself. I can’t multitask, I can’t deal with questions, and I’ve lost my bossy. I miss you, Bossy. So. Much.
I demand you come back right now!
On a brighter note, my headache is only a third as bad as it has been this week, I’m only a wee bit nauseous, and it *almost* feels like I don’t have cancer. Small victory! 🙂