day 5 I’M AWAKE
I’m not used to taking medicine for anything. I avoid pain killers because I usually end up feeling worse. A feeling I thought might be crazy until I learned I was allergic to ibuprofen. The allergy test made me feel a lot less crazy, actually. It’s amazing how people can make you feel when they are aggressively skeptical of your feelings. I’ve been told it’s all in my head more than I’ve been taken seriously. Five different doctors told me my health issues were due to stress. People still find room to be skeptical of my gluten intolerance. I was vomiting weekly until I cut gluten out of my diet, but yeah, you’re right, it’s all in my head. Just a fad that I’m jumping onto cuz it’s hip. Are you stupid? These fads don’t become popular for no reason. ADD and ADHD were considered a fad. Maybe 10% of the people that claim it, don’t actually have a right to, but that is a weird percentage to be focusing on. How human of us to want to focus on the people who are wrong. A lot of people were given a name for something they struggle with, and because of that they felt a little less alone, and a little more like they could have better control in their lives. It infuriates me that we do not focus on these people, they are the majority. Just because you have an annoying cousin that claims every newly discovered diagnosis, doesn’t mean EVERYONE is your cousin. SLAP YOU! Wake up to reality. Saying gluten intolerance is just a fad is like saying diabetes is the new must-have this season. Sugar and Gluten are equally not meant to be in some bellies. Just because you aren’t diabetic, just because you aren’t gluten intolerant, don’t be a fool and assume all other people are like you.
My food allergies are not fake, and they were tough to deal with before cancer. I was given a safe list to start, and then every 4 days I get to add a new food. This is very strict. When I say I can only have these things, I mean that’s it, no other spices, none of the usual cooking oils, NOTHING that isn’t on this list.
beef (organic, in fact, just slap on “organic” after everything)
dry curd cottage cheese
for one week I ate only these things. After the initial torturous week, i added one new ingredient, every four days, from a list based on my tolerance level measured in the test.
These are the items, in the order they were added:
HMF powder (probiotics for digestion)
spinach (didn’t like how it made me feel, so i discontinued)
I added american cheese in a bit earlier than the schedule said I should, but, you know, I have cancer. I need a treat. So far the new diet is treating me well, the cancer not as much. Today I made it through an entire day at work. After halving the recommended dose of anti-nausea I got a good mix of both staying awake and not vomiting. Liquid vitamin B complex gave me a boost of energy. It was my first whole day of work since treatment started. Have I mentioned how awesome my coworkers and bosses are? So awesome. They are the kind of people you’d want to have around while you try not to vomit on your work.